NeiL's Journal

10:56pm: My vains are popping out.....
OUt i say... im losing all focus. please fast forward already. going hazy... i miss kfc gravy..

I got this spot right beside me, waiting here just for You. Thank you Mr Wertz.

3:27pm: how many seconds does it take for me to turn sour.?
.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001

2:08am: stuck in a moment.
there are pockets of time, moments in my days, when nothing matters but the image of you, smiling at me, pouting at me, even just a staring at me. it wraps me up.It throws me so high up. that the feeling of falling back down makes me sleepy.

you may notice that i fall quiet every once in a while,it's because all my worries disappear when I'm with you.

2:17am: F-Ork.
no means of which, ever can i manage to win you over.fork.
my hearT stUtters.
WHere is my name on that list of yours. Fleeting dreams are what i am made of.

5:20am: feed me
im a baon boy for life..

2:42am: I don't know what i want.
because i know what i want.

2:25am: i feeL likE fuckingcrying.
i dont knw why.sometimes these feelings just hiT you and you dont know what To do with them.i miss ironing. i dont really iron on the weekends since there isnt any school to be ironing my uniform for.. that's all. ystrday night.was.. ahumm. i still cant imagine it happend. so happy yet so ugh.. what to Do? ohoho from a friend. ths weekend's been a bluRr. high points being--> ben and jerry's cadburybars of chocolate,an email, a morning with someone ahum ahum.lowpoints... everything else.. hayzz... my nights have nvr been the same since the death of you. ipodmini come back..

12:59am: a worthy post.
i have found A nEw a new i keep saying anew... avenue foR my own lackofabilty to help myself think.. i repeat. iron iron iron.i wish to iron everynight.give me yourclothes people!

11:42am: jacob needleman interview. read.
http://www.tamuk.edu/geo/urbana/jacob.htm

11:39am: KI-ness
Philosopher, Jacob Needleman:

Almost all of us are gasping for more time. We are starving. And all of the devices and techniques that our inventive culture offers only increase the yearning for time - like the food of Hell that makes the eater hungrier. Our cell phones, computers and fax machines and the countless other inventions that "save time" only starve us more and more, exactly like the food of Hell. We are paying for these things with our time, with our lives, which is our time.

[From Time and the Soul:63]

Irish poet, artist, & mystic, George Russell ("AE"):

One of the first symptoms of the loss of soul is
the loss of the sense of beauty.
[Source unknown]

11:11am: love please online
wishwishwish.talksharesmiLE.

6:06pm: i am a dashboarder..
~and with the grace with which she walked into my life will stay with me in my steps for so long, so long.

3:34am: tremendous powerful attraction
i cant get it out of my system. babuy.
















i am i am i am an addict. an abuser. a super fan of rainier painier. i love your song.your voice.your music.

2:17am: let the world acknowledge me please.
invisible mode.

3:04pm: i want chocolate.
belldandy dandy: chocol8... wahh
belldandy dandy: or... dubai instant noodles.
belldandy dandy: kailangn ko ng maraming instant noodles. wahaha
joyales29: bakit naman instant noodles?
belldandy dandy: para sa gabi..
joyales29: nwei, ung chocolate given na un
joyales29: kahit di mo ako hingian
joyales29: =]




a big smile.>@

4:13pm: music
made a musical last nyt.as i walkd alone.thru unknown territory.for an hour.or maybe more. the tunes startd coming out. the words too.and they jst came togther...

no one was there to hear but me. no one will ever get to hear but me. nver nver.

2:24am: i"m so tired........
Of tHe corners OF youR LIps. PArt them And FEeL my Finger tips. taste thE mOment. faLL forever.

10:04am: my ipod.(actually sa shoti ko)
has Died.!! and now im truly all alone in singapore.. i cant stdy. i cant eat.. i cant do anything without thnkng of it. DEAD> depressing sobra...... babagsak na ako ng schl dahil sa pagkamatay ng ipod ko!!! gusto ko umuwi para buhayin SHa muli.

3:11pm: i cant sing
the songs i wana sing are too good for me.. i hate dashboard.

11:37am: no schl burthday. belatd.
how Fun. like a fream cum fruE. i bought myself a book. p[lus elmo.. the red hand Fuppet.and that wuz that.

8:03am: garf
i double died ystrday. and tripled sum more last nyt wen i calld SAM. i h8 u samueL. u must encouagE.! not discourage... garf. owel. sing for me sam and il forgve u.!mwahhaa

11:24am: today is the day
that i DOn't knoW whAt i NEed.. iF not hEr.